Because I miss school.
It's been more than a week ever since I went to school. For the first time, I really felt that I miss school so much. I miss doing ppt, I miss being a monkey in class, I miss sleeping during 6P, I miss calling everyone for lunch, I miss my classmates, I miss my W24L, I miss faci, I miss everyone. But I'm glad I'll be putting my 'holiday' to an end already. I'm going back to school tomorrow, like fuck yeah. Sick and tired of staying at home, sick and tired of lying in bed, most importantly, I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
The one week experience was definitely not a good one but it was an eye-opener to many things.
1)
I may be in pain, but there are others who are in MORE pain than I am.
In that ward itself, there's this woman on this bed opposite me. She just had a surgery and she can barely move. She can't eat or drink cos when she did, she'll end up throwing everything up and it's pointless. She cried all the time and the amount of needles she had in her body was way more than mine and I thought that was really sad )':
2)
When I thought I had no one there for me when I'm in pain, there are others out there who are living by themselves.
The same woman, living in a massive pain and unable to do anything. She had no one visiting her throughout her stay there. OMG I was thinking where on Earth are her kids and family. They might be busy but can't possibly be too busy to even visit their sick mum in the hospital. That was when I thought I am really thankful to have my family and friends by my side when I'm in need.
3)
The one that I thought would be there for me ended up not caring and enjoying his/her life away.
Well, it's funny how the one that pushed you away always tells you they miss having you around. I wasn't wrong to say you've changed. You'll only look for me when you're bored or when you have no one else with you. Wow, I didn't know I worked part-time as a spare tyre. Thank you so much for this. Now I know what I'm worth in your eyes.
